Illusion to reality?

This heart keep a secret, secret that only this heart can keep,

I dream an illusion, illusion that I cannot seek,

I have taught my soul to not fickle, fickle it always is,

Not to know how to tame, it wanders far, I see it go!

Heart, my mind thinks of you,

Reality or an illusion to how would I ever know?

If illusion, to reality I want to turn it and see,

Trust, faith and love, I have blindly put in this dream!

The more I think, the more I get weak, Where this way will lead?

Will this illusion end someday?

Who are you? To whom, I willingly permit to inflict this pain,

Withered I feel, days you do not speak; I live again, something when you say!

Must I make my mind, soul and heart, not to think of you again?

Must I tell my heart, illusion you always will be,

Time is right to teach myself,

Perfect love and waiting for, is not worth for me!