They
tell me I have no light and I live in diminishing faith,
Fear
grips my heart, doubt carpets my mind,
I
don’t sit with my Bible, nor many time I sit in prayer,
Church
I don’t visit often, my life seems astray.
Trembling
soul, cold and weak, dwindling might, I could hardly see,
I
see my dusty strength scattered here and scattered there,
With
my shivering hands I gather it from rusty floor,
That
little strength that I am left with, seems not enough to fight.
I
don’t sit in Church, for long hours neither do I pray,
I
don’t talk in tongues, nor wise righteous word I display,
I
don’t quote Bible in every word I say,
I
am just someone who don’t know how to offer a perfect prayer.
All
I know is I’m weak, I need His mighty strength indeed,
Day
and night I say HELP is only conversation we have,
My
heart needs Him every day, I know every day He has my back,
I
know my trembling hands are whole again in His promised pact.
Last
night as I laid myself, with questions as always,
This
time the conversation was more than usual; help I say,
Not
that I was with heavy heart, nor I was in pain,
Few
drops of tears rolled out on my face.
I
was confused to why and what that meant?
My
fears seam to leave, my mind was at peace,
My
heart was filled with undefined grace,
I
felt the strength in me again, His light in that dark night embraced.
I
know I am not right, no righteous life I live,
Lord!
I know I have made innumerable mistakes,
You
still speak to me, You still ready to pick me from my disgrace,
I
lean to You, humbly I seek your face.
Last
night brought a new day,
A
day of surrender and sweet prayers,
I
know, I was dubious, uncertain in my ways,
All
I had to do is bent a little and cling to His boundless, abounding grace.